Anonymous asked: I just wanted to say briefly that when your feeling like that just try to remember that your important and loved by those around you. I get that when your feeling that low you may not be able to but if u cant keep that in mind remember that this stranger is rooting for u You probably dont even realize how significant you are because of how numb you are, sorry were. Sorry if this is jargon to you and if I brought up bad memories I just wanted to make sure that you had this little reminder (2/2) thank you i appreciate this letter very much how every my life has gotten significantly better im with the girl i love and hope to marry some day and in my opinion things are going great like any relationship there are ups and downs but im very happy were i am right now but i wish we could move in together how ever there are complications currently preventing that from happening and that does have my sprites down a little but im still very happy and great-full to be with her for the time that i have. but thank you very much for your message made my day

Anonymous asked: I just wanted to say briefly that when your feeling like that just try to remember that your important and loved by those around you. I get that when your feeling that low you may not be able to but if u cant keep that in mind remember that this stranger is rooting for u You probably dont even realize how significant you are because of how numb you are, sorry were. Sorry if this is jargon to you and if I brought up bad memories I just wanted to make sure that you had this little reminder (2/2)

thank you i appreciate this letter very much how every my life has gotten significantly better im with the girl i love and hope to marry some day and in my opinion things are going great like any relationship there are ups and downs but im very happy were i am right now but i wish we could move in together how ever there are complications currently preventing that from happening and that does have my sprites down a little but im still very happy and great-full to be with her for the time that i have. but thank you very much for your message made my day

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does any one even read this stuff i post just wondering?

the end? ive dug my self a hole and i feel safe in this hole i dont want to leave it but if i dont then i will be here for the rest of my life .. how ever long that may be and i do hope it is not a long life because i hate my self and my life i am in this hole to hide from my past a past that has hurt me to the point of no repair i want to find the way out before it is too late i want to find a new life and to do so i need to leave montreal i need to get out as soon as i can other wise i may cause more harm to my health i need a fresh start i need to leave this place of bad and good memories behind me and move forward to a new day i feel as tho this is a never endding night that i cant only find small distractions but i want to move on and distractions can only help me so much i want more then what my life is right now. i want to end the pain and suffering i have been in the hands of death already but was given a second chance at life then all this had happened and i want to return to thouse cold hands of death i want to feel again i feel as tho i am already dead inside. i need a new life. i need a fresh start. i want to live. i want more then what i am right now. i need a way out of this hole i have dug myself if not then this hole will become what i feel it is already. this hole is my grave. i am not ready to be layed to rest.. not yet. i need a way out. i have to find a way out of this grave. my home town is nothing more then painful memories. i hurt every day but i have become so numb that i barely show this pain. i need a new life. this is what i feel as my life and thouse of you who may think this to be some form of suicide note. no it is not why because i feel it would be pointless to kill myself when i feel dead already. i am not saying i have not thought about it i have i have even planed out multipule ways of doing it but the thing is i dont want to die i have been dead once before i do not remember any thing from it so i cant say i want to go there to the life of the dead. but i want to see what more this world has to offer me. if any one want to talk to me in regards to this post feel free to message me. 

the end?

ive dug my self a hole and i feel safe in this hole i dont want to leave it but if i dont then i will be here for the rest of my life .. how ever long that may be and i do hope it is not a long life because i hate my self and my life i am in this hole to hide from my past a past that has hurt me to the point of no repair i want to find the way out before it is too late i want to find a new life and to do so i need to leave montreal i need to get out as soon as i can other wise i may cause more harm to my health i need a fresh start i need to leave this place of bad and good memories behind me and move forward to a new day i feel as tho this is a never endding night that i cant only find small distractions but i want to move on and distractions can only help me so much i want more then what my life is right now. i want to end the pain and suffering i have been in the hands of death already but was given a second chance at life then all this had happened and i want to return to thouse cold hands of death i want to feel again i feel as tho i am already dead inside. i need a new life. i need a fresh start. i want to live. i want more then what i am right now. i need a way out of this hole i have dug myself if not then this hole will become what i feel it is already. this hole is my grave. i am not ready to be layed to rest.. not yet. i need a way out. i have to find a way out of this grave. my home town is nothing more then painful memories. i hurt every day but i have become so numb that i barely show this pain. i need a new life.

this is what i feel as my life and thouse of you who may think this to be some form of suicide note. no it is not why because i feel it would be pointless to kill myself when i feel dead already. i am not saying i have not thought about it i have i have even planed out multipule ways of doing it but the thing is i dont want to die i have been dead once before i do not remember any thing from it so i cant say i want to go there to the life of the dead. but i want to see what more this world has to offer me.

if any one want to talk to me in regards to this post feel free to message me.